Story #559
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I’ve been a church mouse but years later I am able to see that I was just a great actor. I fought with trusting & managed to keep everyone at arm’s length, always holding something back so that I can maintain some sense of control. I treated my relationship with God the same way, sure I liked the idea, loved church, volunteered, even prayed “that” prayer many times but I always felt like I was alone, empty. It took me trying to hide an affair I had years ago, my marriage falling apart & then finding out about my husband’s own secret life to finally reach my rock bottom & quit being “okay” -I reached out, step by step, learned to trust & let people in. God helped me bring into the light what I had been hiding. With that burden gone I was able to finally trust Jesus with my life. I was honest with my husband & God used what was meant for pain & destruction to bring us back together. There’s scars to heal, but there’s HOPE & honesty. My God specializes in messes. Reach out, trust in Him.